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May 20, 2004

let's get physical

So we joined a gym. A really nice gym. Well, not just a nice gym, an expensive gym. Expensive enough to make most people choke--sort of gym. But you know what, I'm really excited about it.

This gym has pretty much everything I could want and more...pool, weights, pilates studio, spinning classes, tennis, all the weights you can imagine, classes galore, a cafe and even a spa.

We committed for a year.

And this time it's not going to be like other times I've joined a gym and skipped out after 4 months. Not when I pretty much gave them my first born child to go there (lucky them!).

I have my first personal training session (one of four included in my membership) tonight. Basically it will be the lay of the land, understanding the equipment, figuring out my goals and plotting a course to move forward. I know that I want to take water aerobics classes and start doing some weight training. They have so many fascinating classes...if I get bored I can just try something else.

It seems so strange to me that I'm excited about exercising. I think that this is the first time, in my entire life, that I can say that.

Many years ago, I spent some time with someone that was in love with me but didn't love my body. I made the bold move of asking what they thought about my body and the response was, "I wish I could be in your body for awhile, because there is so much I could do to change it." Talk about a major blow to my self-esteem. Even now, ten years later, it still stings.

The thing is, I don't want anyone else to change my body...I want ME to be the one to do that, and I want to do it for the right reasons--not to make someone love me. I really rebelled against my feelings back then. Other people may have felt motivated to do something about themselves upon receiving a comment like that, but I was quite the opposite. My father often harped on me about my weight as well, telling me that I would never get a job or a boyfriend unless I lost weight.

I set out to prove them wrong. And I did. I have a career in marketing that has usually been upward, have had many boyfriends and now have a loving husband. Regardless of my weight.

But it was a true statement, really...there IS so much I can do to make my body better. I have been eating extra healthy for quite awhile now, making sure I have lots of fruits and vegetables in my diet. I walk 1-3 miles a day at least 5 days a week. I feel better than I have in a long time.

So the gym is just the next step, to help get that heart rate up and to begin to tone my muscles. Next year I want to be in great shape and join a softball league!

"Health, south wind, books, old trees, a boat, a friend." ~ Emerson.

Sounds good to me.

Posted by crystallyn at May 20, 2004 06:15 AM

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